On the fourth…

With each pregnancy, I’ve discovered new little gems of information.

So far this time around I’ve discovered that:

My vision really does go to crap when I’m procreating.

It’s actually possible to slim down during pregnancy (albeit completely unintentionally)

You forget how big you were the last time, and the time before that, and so on because OMG you feel so.damn.big everyday.

Everyone telling you how great you look while pregnant will make you feel great for about .05 seconds before making you question how horrible you look when you aren’t knocked up.

Four kids is a lot by today’s standards of “2.5 kids.”  Which leads me to…

Everyone will ask you if you own a TV and have cable.  They will then proceed to ask if you’re aiming for a basketball team.  My answer to both is “yes, yes, and why are you so interested in my sex life, you perv?!”

Some pregnant women turn into emotional messes.  I turn into a sarcastic witch.

Some people will be offended by this.  Those people obviously don’t know the real me.  I’m always a sarcastic witch.

I can eat, and be starving in the next ten minutes.  Not just hungry, no, starving to the point of “ohmygawdfeedmeoriwillfaint” king of hungry.

And on that note, I’m out of here.  This child is mad at me for not feeding her in the last twenty minutes…

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How does this parenting thing go again???

This post is brought to you by my reading too many “mommy blogs” and a chat with my bestie.

My first two kids were easy babies. Yes, they got sick, yes they got rashes, yes I breastfed both of them and they both co-slept up until about a year old.

That was before I discovered the wonders of the internet. Ah yes, information at your fingertips. So many people with so many opinions. All touting the “right way” to do this and do that and even that too.

Please excuse me while I lose my fucking mind a bit.

See, the first two times around I had my mom and grandma to answer my questions.

What do I put on a diaper rash? Golondrina? Ok, got it, thanks. This time? Well there’s Desistin, and Dr. Smith’s, and Buttpaste, and organic chamomile induced tea tree oils from the natural springs of china blessed by monks but, wait, why did you even let your baby get a rash in the first place?! She’s wearing diapers?! Not cloth diapers?! Not cloth diapers that you made yourself after shivving a sheep and spinning the cloth yourself?! You fail at motherhood!!!

And feeding. Oh my gosh with the feeding. Breast is best. But you can only eat organic foods. And don’t you even dare think about mixing breast and bottle before the baby is 3 weeks old. You were seriously considering buying Gerber? You mean you’re not going to make your own baby food?! But, it’s SO EASY! Organic is best! If I fucking read one more thing about organic being best I will seriously lose my shit. Because ohmygah organic is like the new vegan. It’s the cool thing to do so everyone is talking about it. BLAH!!!

You know what? Both my kids ate Gerber as babies. I ate what I wanted when I wanted save for a few things I discovered made them sick when I breastfed (found through trial and error not a million websites). They both used disposable diapers and neither of them got squashed to death from co-sleeping.

I think I have stressed myself out incredibly too much trying to figure out what to do and what not to do with this baby that I haven’t allowed myself to trust my instincts. I’ve felt like I had to research every question I had and then research every answer and then ask family members and then stress about whatever answer I decided to go with. It’s like I forgot how to be a parent.

Enough. I will trust my gut. I will go with what I know. And I will cut back on the blog reading because ohmygah I am seriously going to go postal on someone if don’t.

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On Missed Connections

I am *not* a social person.  I don’t make nice with strangers.

I have become a lot nicer and a tad friendlier since the boyfriend became the boyfriend, but a bit of the cynical bitch is still alive and well inside me.

I’ve entered my senior year in college.  This means I have the same group of people for most of my classes.  I’ve had class with them for the past two semesters.  Ask me how many of them I’m on an I-remember-your-name/ friendly/speaking/not-ignoring-you terms with…g’head, ask me…one.  One.  Heck, we even exchanged numbers and email addys a few semesters back.  Aside from her I can think of two other people I actually like and only one who’s become a friend on social networks.

Those friendships started and grew through a tiny part of my own, but mostly because these people are major extroverts.  Had it not been for them reaching out, I’d know no one in my classes.

What I’m getting at here is that I get to class every day and see all these people interacting and a part of me wants to jump into the conversation because some of these people are actually really smart and talk about interesting things, but I don’t because I feel like I’d be interrupting a family meal or something.

And this wouldn’t be a problem, but it’s been getting harder and harder for me to get back into learning/discussion mode lately and I know it takes a good informal discussion to jog my mind back into shape.

So what do I do?  ”hey! I’ve had you for class for like three semesters already, I know I don’t ever remember your name and I may have given you side-eye once or twice during discussion because I completely disagreed with your interpretation of the novel, but let’s be friends!”  No.

So I suppose I’ll have to form my own little discussion group in my head.

It’s ok.  They all know me here.  And we have coffee…

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Relaxing Reflections (also known as “creative titles are not my thing”)

Well, it took me about a week and a half but I think I finally got this relaxing thing down.

I’m currently in PJs on my couch with food in front of me & “That Thing You Do” on the telly…life is good.

Went to the Dr. this morning & every thing is looking great…our princess is growing (7 lbs 9 oz already!) and looking ready to come out any day now…right as I learn to relax…ha!

I know everyone is writing reflective posts looking back at their year and lessons learned and what not, but so many amazing things have happened this year that it would be impossible to sum it all up in one post…we’ve grown together as a family so much, my Munchkins are growing into amazing people, we’re adding another blessing to our family, it’s been an amazing year full of so much awesome that I don’t even have the words.

I hope all of you had an amazing year as well, and if you didn’t, cheers to the new year and may it bring you all that 2011 didn’t!

Love you guys!

Besos!

 

 

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this and that

First full day at home: halfway down.

Christmas was amazing.  Awesome time with family, perfect gifts, happy kids, everything was just right.  Couldn’t have asked for more.  My living room is covered in Lego Ninjago stuff & kids taking over the TV to use the Kinect, but it’s all absolutely worth it.

I keep thinking I’m going into labor, but it seems to always be a false alarm.  I feel like I’m going to be pregnant forever at this point.  Contraction, contraction, contraction, then nothing.  le sigh…C’mon baby girl! We’re all anxious to meet you!!!

I suppose I should take advantage of the peace and quiet I can get before she arrives.  Indulge in naps and lazy days and older kids who are semi-independent…

Right. And with that said, Kbob is off on a roadtrip with Grandma so that means M & I need to take advantage and make it a girl’s day…I’m off to find something to do!

Besos!

 

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8 & counting

36 weeks.  2 days.  tick tock

Ah, life has been hectic.  It seems to have sped up even more so at the close of soccer season.  Go figure.  I guess my need to fill every waking second with something to make it seem like a productive use of time may have something to do with it.

3 finals.  All done. Two A’s. One B.  Aaaah, Shakespeare and my dear professor…I shall not miss you.

So.much.shopping.  So.much.stuff.  So.many.GREAT.deals.  I just wasn’t able to say no.

So now I look forward to my time off at the end of the year to de-clutter and reorganize spaces knowing full well that I’ll need to enlist the munchkin’s to help, but they’ve been SO helpful as of late that it’s no biggie.

Can’t wait for christmas morning  I’m so excited to see everyone open their gifts this year.  I’m stoked with the presents we got everyone because they are just.SO.perfect.

The tree’s been up & decorated.  The apartment looks so festive and cozy.  The kids are so excited.  It’s just been a good time at Casa de Sanchez as of late.

Now if we can just convince Ms. New-Princess-In-Town to flip back into ready position, we’ll be set.  <3

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Hair today, gone tomorrow (how many times have you heard *that* one?)

Let’s talk about hair.  Again.

Because that’s all I can think about right now.  This may be in part because my mother commented on it (my mom really couldn’t care less about this kind of stuff, she has natural beauty & opts to keep it that way save for a monthly dye job to keep the grey away).

But yesterday she said I just had to do something with it because it looked dry…”at least spray some shine on it, that garnier stuff or something!”

O.o

My hair is fried.  It’s nasty.  It’s long and thin and ratty and dull and crispy and just a big pain in the ass to deal with.

But it’s long.  And I love long hair.  I am holding on to the length as some sort of security blanket and I sort of kind of want to refuse to let go.

But it’s time.  It’s got to go.

So off I go to look for medium length haircuts (silently praying that I don’t have to go for a bob because ohmygah that is just too short) and IGH…medium length hair is NOT my thing.  At all.  Wish me luck.  I’m going to need it.

 

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All Dolled Up

My usual reaction to having to get all dolled up for something is bitchy sighing and complaining with a side of “being a girl is SO.HARD.”

But truth be told, I love it.  I love being a girly-girl.  I love spending time doing my makeup, attempting to perfect the smokey eye, and just looking at myself.  I’m vain.  We know this.

Hair is another issue though.  I got bored with flat ironing it, had fun for a bit with the curling iron, had an A-HA! Moment when I learned to curl it *with* the flat iron, and now I just usually throw it up in a ponytail & call it a day.  It’s long.  It’s unhealthy.  The color bores me.  And there is NOTHING I can do about it for at least 6 more months.  Woe is me.

That said, I’ve been reading a lot of blogs lately with make-up tips, hair product recommendations, youtube video tutorials on styling techniques (hello, sock bun curls!) and I’m inspired again to actually doll up without a scheduled occasion.

Something about glamming it up for no reason at all makes me feel a million times better about myself.

So now that I can’t really buy any cute clothes or rock sky-high heels for a while, I’m making it a point to do my makeup & style my hair every day.

Thank goodness I found a primer I love: MAC Prep + Prime (with spf 50!!!) I stumbled on this when looking for a new pressed powder & the MAC chick told me I needed a primer for the makeup to actually stay on all day (yes, clueless I was) and said this stuff was like “glue for your face” which really isn’t the best selling technique, but damn if it doesn’t work really great.

I also found a conditioner that I LOVE thanks to an old blog on Dramatic SighL’oreal Eversleek.  It’s sulfate free which means I can use it even after I dye my hair again and it smells great.  My hair really has become healthier since I’ve been using it.  I’ve noticed way fewer split ends & it just feels so soft.  Plus for that price, you really can’t beat it.

I’m still looking for the perfect black eyeliner…you know, all-day wear, smudge-proof, etc…so if you have any suggestions, please let me know!  I’m using this for now and I love it, except that if I want it to last past three or four hours, I have to use a powder liner to seal it & it doesn’t lend for the most natural look, so on most days I skip it and just go for super long lashes with Voluminous Million Lashes.  I love that it doesn’t flake or clump and it’s incredibly easy to take off.  I was using Lash Stiletto before and while my lashes looked awesome, it was a bitch to take off. 

I usually skip the lipstick/gloss/plumper unless we’re going out, which hasn’t been a lot lately, but when needed, I always turn to VS Very Voluptuous Lip Plumper.  I swear by this stuff.  For everyday wear though, I just use my cherry chapstick.  My lips are red as it is, so this stuff just makes them nice & soft.

That pretty much seals the look and I’m good to go.   Sometimes I’ll add on some fake lashes for extra oomph, but it’s been so hot here that I’m scared the glue will melt off (and yes, this has actually happened).

What about you? 
Do you have any beauty products that you swear by?
Do you love getting dolled up, or is more of a chore for you?

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On Breastfeeding

What’s the big deal?

Lately I’ve been noticing signs posted up in public places letting mothers know that “breastfeeding is allowed in this establishment.” 

Um, gee…thanks??? 

Seriously, when did breastfeeding become so taboo?  I remember when I had my daughter I would breastfeed everywhere…the movies, the park, softball games, restaurants, you name it.  She was hungry, she’d get fed.  That simple.  And no, I never had an embarrassing moment.  I draped a blanket over my shoulder and people usually just figured she was asleep. 

But now I apparently have to be careful that someone might be offended by me feeding my child and complain.  Really?  I don’t get offended by mothers who bottle feed, it’s none of my business.  As long as I’m not shoving my boob all in your face, what do you care?!

And what is with this push to get every mother to breastfeed?  Yes, I do believe it’s better for your baby and I think it makes a ton of difference in their health and immune system, but I also understand that some women just physically can’t. 

For me, there was never a question of whether or not I would nurse my children.  I would, and that was that.  And yes, it was painful, but I got over it.  Having healthy babies made it worth it.  But lately I’ve been reading more and more about women having problems producing enough milk or the baby not latching on or a million other things going wrong and I do worry a bit that I might not be able to this time around.  It would devastate me.

But back to my rant about breastfeeding…I think it’s ridiculous for places to actually ban it.  Might as well just ban children from the establishment while we’re at it…oh wait, some places already have.

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On Waiting

Being pregnant at 25 as opposed to say ten or eight years earlier is an entirely new experience.

My body is not 25.  My body is more in the range of 30-33.  Well, truth be told, with all my aches and pains it’s closer to 50 than to 30, but I digress.

My last two pregnancies included a bit of high blood pressure, tons of heartburn, and oodles of morning sickness. This time around I’ve been blessed with a partner who shares in the pains & took over the morning sickness completely.  I’m sorry, Love.  But know that I love you more for it.

I’m barely closing in on four months, but my belly has grown (basically from one week to the next), my back is killing me, and I have boobs that I’d pay good money to have once I’m done with the baby making business.

I’ve had friends wonder why I took so long to tell them, and the truth is I was scared.  When I was pregnant with my other two, I was so damn young that the thoughts and worries you have at 25 don’t even cross your brain.  I was never worried about the cramping or the discomfort or anything of the sort.  I guess that’s one of the few things about getting knocked up so soon.  You’re too young to worry about the worrisome stuff.  Now every little pain has my stomach in knots over “is this normal? I don’t remember feeling this” but the truth is that almost ten years later, my body is much, much different.  I can’t expect to have the same pregnancies all over again.

That being said, I’m ecstatic.  My Love is the best man I could ask for.  He takes care of me, he pampers me, he worries along with me but doesn’t show it.  My Munchkins are getting to experience this pregnancy with me and for that I couldn’t be happier.  They are so excited.  M more than Kbob.  He’s having a case of the “I’m not gonna be the baby anymore” but he’s still excited.  M can’t wait to have a baby sister around to carry and play with and hold.

It’s surreal.
I love my life.

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